It’s a wonderful Life, NOW. Maybe you are assaulted by fears of the future, and stories of the past that threaten to repeat, 
but now it’s a wonderful life. And it’s about to get much better. 

Like Ebenezer Scrooge you are taken by an angel through the dreams of the past so you can see what you have done and why, you will see what you have created and how. You will get a chuckle here and there at the foibles of the human drama, but alas, no guilt is allowed for everything you have done was for love. Everything you created was a result of you doing the best you could with what you knew. And soon you will know other things and new creations will occur. We will make it a pleasant journey together and you will awaken to a pristine morning in the clear light of day, like Ebenezer Scrooge in a Christmas Carol. 

Do you remember that story? There was a profound message in it. But you do not need the guilt that racked poor Ebenezer, so decide now before we begin this journey that there will be no guilt or blame for the beautiful child that you are. And when you have seen the truth you will awaken to a new wonderful life ripe with fullness and love, possibilities, inspiration, health, vitality, and a deep sense of being home again. 

Try to remember how beautiful you are now. Try to realize how much I love you. Feel how delightful you are. Just do that now. And as we spend this time together do it as much as you can. You will remember this love. Just take moments on our journey to let go of everything and feel the love. Just exhale whenever you want with a deep ahhh, and be here in this wonderful moment for a few breaths. Let us learn something beautiful as we spend this time. Let us begin the journey. 

People do so many things in order to be happy and none of them work for very long. Permanent happiness seems eternally out of reach. We try spirituality, meditation, the new job, more education, more knowledge, the new mate, a new hobby etc. We try moving to different locations and yet things remain the same or return to the same old stuff after a brief reprise. One damn thing after another occurs as if some gremlins are constantly lighting fires in our lives that demand our attention, and indeed this is true. But gremlins can be cute. They can be trained and eventually make nice pets. 

Nothing you do to be happy will ever work until you understand yourself as the source of your experiences. Lets look at it this way, there are fires starting all over your life, problems coming, one after another, things going wrong, events breakdowns and situations pissing you off. And dear heart, you spend what little resources of time, money, and energy you have left on books and classes on how to put out fires, be a better firefighter, be bigger, stronger, smarter, more successful, and how to be more loving and yet the fires keep starting. You do get better at coping with them and putting them out, the trouble is they seem to be growing in intensity at an ever-alarming rate. This is natural while you still derive identity from starting them. But aren’t you a little tired now? 

Because the truth is you have created twelve little gremlins (behind the scenes) who enjoy lighting the fires, and now they take absolute glee in watching you run around putting them out. And it’s becoming a full time job with no end in sight. As a matter of fact it may have become your identity. Yes you are that person with those problems and those solutions and those wins and losses and that’s just the way it is. Or is it? 

Maybe permanent peace is possible. And perhaps the only book you need to read or the only education you need should be called Taming your Gremlins. So lets paper train them, tame them, love them, teach them to sit, stay, lay down, and roll over.

A gremlin is a self perpetuating story, a little ball of mental energy. This energy is attractive and magnetic and creates problems all over the place for you to solve. So these thought gremlins are really intelligent, they are made out of intelligence. They are cunning, and they offer you amazing gifts to keep you from dissuading them from their pursuit of misery. They distract you constantly with these fires they are starting. As soon as you get close to discovering them they create a diversion. So don’t be surprised if you misplace this book lose it or just lose interest in it when it gets close to uncovering one of your fire starting gremlins. You see the Gremlins are made out of your own mental substance and often possess you completely. That is why they are so hard to find they are made of your own mind stuff. Yes they often become the voice in your head that has you screw everything up. 

So it is a function of your old stories about you and the world to keep themselves alive. You derive identity from this, you are your story. You are the poor lonely man or woman who no one understands, there is of course a huge pay off in this because you get to feel special. And specialness is our chosen replacement for love. But more on that later. Just notice it, if I can’t be Love, I might as well be special, and that implies better than others, separate, suffering, stories, and this specialness even includes having enemies. You just gotta have ‘em, can’t live with ‘em can’t live without ‘em. 

Anyway, lets take a look at how these gremlins were born, suffic it to say tey are little clumps of electromagnetic energy, or thought forms that have grown in power and believability over the years. If you are older they are bigger and will eventually kill you. Unfortunately it is a slow demise into old age, sickness, loneliness, inability, sadness etc. 

Here's how they were created. This is a creation fable that contains large amounts of truth. 

Lets start at the beginning. I love you and I’ll tell you why. You are a beautiful magnificent child of GOD and this is how you knew yourself before you were born. All hope all possibility, all love radiance beauty peace power and grace was your natural state and will be again when you understand a few simple things that try to be complicated to avoid detection. 

You were all love then an idea occurred, lets incarnate. Wow Earth life could be so great I could love, learn, create art, family there's always Holidays, people have fun, there are sports, and games. Birth seems very attractive. So the angel of you, clothes itself in a fine light of mental matter, the idea. Then emotional substance adheres to it like a watery mist. These waters are desire, I desire fun, I desire the play of earth life. 

I could be more perhaps than this everything I have now, or maybe I just desire to lose myself in the Earth Game, what fun, who knows what will happen. Ahhh so the angel puts on the desire body over the mental, then it is time to be born, we find the right couple, and through their sperm and egg begin to create an etheric web of matter which will become the body. This is the electro magnetic body of Chakras, and Nadis, and meridians that Chinese doctors know so well and treat with acupuncture. 

So the fetus comes into being to the chosen couple in accordance with the blueprint designed by your beautiful self to give you the Optimal Game. You jump in. You might flicker for a while until you gain control of the three instruments that you have created, mental, emotional, and etheric or electrical. The etheric is the web or underlying structure of your physical body so well just say body for now, later the distinction etheric will be very useful to you as you decide to change your physical body, heal it, repair it, redefine it. You don’t know you have an etheric body underlying your physical for a long time. But when you are a kid and have a fever you begin to suspect its presence. You can literally feel your energy body at these times and it’s obviously made of electricity, hence the fire. 

So, you flicker in and out of Spirit, beauty, love, and the soup of oneness. All is cozy. Then there is a break from this state of swirling patterns and no differentiations. Something happens to jar the angel loose and thrust this beautiful oneness into “The World”. 

Lets say you are a delightful little being, you do everything completely with absolute bliss and one pointed intention, you discover food. Wow how interesting, what is it, color texture smell wow. I think I’ll smear it all over my face, oh there’s a hole, oh I think they want me to put it in there. Wow taste. Wow. Senses develop this could be really fun, but they( the big people) seem to take delight when I rub it around, I know I do. So the baby is blissed out by the new discoveries. “Food is cool, playing with it is fun, lets expand the possibilities”. Then one day when the little angel of you gets a little bigger he or she gets more creative. 

So lets say at three or four the child is just digging how ketchup feels and in an artistic exploration decides that it looks really good on the curtains. The child begins their exploration of art and design, and after a little while a pattern quite pleasing appears on the curtain. The young artist experiences herself as a creator. I can do things, I am delightful, I exist I can now define myself as a creator of other things, I am complete, I am right with this world, I love this, I love me, I am love, wow, I am in my right place and content, I have worth. I am, Here and Now, This all is perfect and getting better all the time.

I can do

I am good

I exist

I am complete

I am right (at one) with this moment

I love this and me

I am in a great space

I have worth

And as you can imagine a big person, one of the Godlike hovering caretakers, comes in and yells and gets a bit frantic. They have to do this, it is there nature and part of the training of new beings. So don’t feel bad if you as a parent have done the same thing. Its just the curriculum for new people. Learn the rules. But at the same time it instantly create the break from oneness and your person begins at this point. The birth of the ego as an awareness of an outside world is also the birth of eight storytelling Gremlins, known as “Kid Is Low”. But so low they can’t even spell so I’ll change it to Cid is Low this is an acronym to help you understand these gremlins there are eight that spring into existence at that moment of the break from NOW.

They aren’t gremlins yet they are merely the first set of distinctions created by this break from bliss. They are the first possibilities for learning. They are mere receptacles at this time like empty bags that can now contain other electro magnetic energies or stories. They spring into existence as mere possibilities. But they develop. So let me shorten the story. The process outlined below might have formulated over the next 5 years for the little angel who is dedicated to learning the rules of the “WORLD”

I can’t do certain things

I am Inadequate to understand what they are

I don’t exist as I once did. And I am not that important.

I am Incomplete, I need something, I wonder what it is, maybe it’s the love that has suddenly been withdrawn from my cute perfect little angel self

Something’s wrong, most definitely and I think it’s me. Could it be something’s wrong with me? Maybe it’s being in bliss as a creator, maybe that’s dangerous, maybe it’s dangerous to be too happy, I’ll have to pay attention to that. When I am too happy maybe I’ll go out of control again and lose the love.

Loveless is this, the new state, love has been temporarily eclipsed, how to get it back?

I am outside the bliss, outside the love, outside the oneness and wonder, I am outside heaven, outside my mothers love.

I am worthless, if I am not loved. And the CID IS LOW.

Can’t do

Inadequate

Don’t exist

Incomplete

Something's wrong

Loveless

Outside

Worthless

Welcome to the world of thought, little angel. From these thought premises you can learn to fit in, behave and develop a personhood, an ego. And the little angel knows how totally important this will be in order to survive this new WORLD. It is literally a life or death situation for this little learner. Learn it or die. 

My very life is threatened if I don’t. Without the love of the giant Godlike beings I will surely die. And of course this is true. I must get their Approval back.

I must control myself, control my world, control my behavior, and control the godlike beings.

And maybe regain Security. 

Welcome to your three desires. Control Approval and Security from the outside world. Your entire life will now be the quest to regain these things from the outside world that seemed to have taken them away. Forget the glorious purpose you once had in heaven, things have changed we must first assure our survival. Then we can get on with the reason we came, what was that anyway? It is already dimming. What was I thinking? Why did I come here? 

But how will I do this? I only know one thing. I only have one tool. The way the nig people controlled me was by withholding love, or maybe its called being unhappy, yes, that’s it unhappiness was definitely there and anger was a part of it. I’ll try it so the little angel uses more intelligent temper tantrums to get stuff, also blaming the brother or sister has a little zing to it and we have all seen little kids fall down and look around to see if anyone saw this, if they see you looking they will very often burst into tears, aha, pain will get me love. No, that’s not quite right. It was subtler than that. There must be more. 

What is this tool that causes fear, unhappiness, and upset. It really did motivate me to change. It was like a psychic pain that moved me, made me stop, made me want to change. So for years we try every flavor of unhappiness to get what we want until we are advanced in the art of motivating me, controlling me, motivating and controlling others. By then we don’t even care what the true name is but we find it. And later, much later maybe just now, we learn it’s true name. The tool is Guilt. And it causes the pain that causes motivation, and I am motivated to get the three things most sought after. The three things that my early life depended on…

Control, Approval, and Security. 

Welcome to your new life’s purpose little angel. Forget those glorious dreams of being an artist, saving the world, being Love; having fun, creating, you have a new purpose now. Survive! Get the three at all costs so I don’t die. This becomes the new mission, and I will use the tool on myself and others because it’s the only thing that seems to work. 

So there are the twelve devices of the psychology of failure. There are eight false core stories which become the invisible drivers of our behavior, there are three intense longings that seem to be a matter of life and death, and there is one tool, emotional pain which eventually surfaces as guilt, the compressed, condensed sharpened tool. 

By developing a deep understanding of the twelve (and their opposites) you will move towards a much happier and more fulfilling life no matter what path you choose to follow. Without unveiling these gremlins your path will never take you where you want to go, it will just reinforce the futility of everything. So stay with me. It may take courage and you may strongly disagree from time to time because this knowledge will threaten your existing thought system and it can literally shatter your current world. And by that I mean remove all the pain from it. Thus shattering your self-image. 

But alas, we are addicted to pain and suffering. It gives me a sense of myself as a hero, an overcomer of obstacles I create, a success, a martyr literally crucified with special pain, more pain than you. More special than you…

So hold on it will be a wild ride.

But first, a little more history. When a child starts using unhappiness to motivate others they know it is a device, then later at teen levels it no longer works as well, they say “I need the keys to the car” Dad says no. They get upset, and it doesn’t work. So they take it up a notch all the devices are running full tilt now, they actually get unhappy, it is not an act anymore. All the other kids will be there. And I need their approval or I might die. I can’t control my father and when I can’t control something I am in danger, anger comes up to protect the life. 

Anger is always associated with the control issue, it is the fight mechanism. And the fight is a fight for survival, so never underestimate the intensity of this drive to control, people die from this one and alas it proves itself true (as these devices always do) So now the teenager is angry, truly unhappy because he or she has to get their way and it is a life or death situation as has been conditioned from babyhood. The device of using unhappiness to get my way is now not a device it is the truth and the young soul (angel incarnate) has descended into near complete unconsciousness. The young soul is growing up. The soul is now completely human. I am unhappy when I don’t get what I need. And I need the keys to the car, my very existence as a popular teenager id threatened by this outrage of my being denied. 

Welcome to the ways of the world little spirit. Now the thought is developed as a reality, all my needs are outside me and I have to fight, manipulate, plan, and wage an endless war to get these things that the world withholds from me. Nowhere in the psychology of the old world was it taught that all the love emanates from you and you are complete now. You need nothing and love holds all the answers. This is just too dangerous. Why? Because the love-oneness state of being, preceded the fall from Mother and Father’s grace. And this is deeply registered at the core of the belief system. Does it sound like a familiar story? Like the fall of the angel from heaven maybe? There was a clue there. Most biblical stories contain these metaphors. 

The core of the belief system is “Happiness, creativity, oneness, and love is very dangerous to me, it created hell once (unequivocally), and is sure to do it again. So never let up the suffering lest you become lazy, inefficient, and subject to attack just like when I was a kid. So I will search for happiness my entire life but because it is actually too dangerous I will never let myself have it completely. 

Ever wonder why you screw up so many wonderful now moments with fear, judgment, attack thoughts, worry, guilt, planning for something else, mental activity of all kinds, just to avoid the bliss of now, freedom, creativity, love and oneness. Love, freedom, joy, release, and peace are the most dangerous states to the ego. Indeed the pre cursors of all my troubles. But there’s good news, your ego can still be educated, or should I say uneducated cleaned up and freed. The ego has gotten a bad rap all these years and all it really did was try to keep you alive. It was a good student. It always tried to do the best it could for you because behind all the madness that it learned on your behalf was it’s love for you. It just wanted to learn the ways of the world (which it did) to take care of you. 

So, enough of this nonsense about killing the ego. The ego still contains all the holograms of you, the beautiful child that you are and your childhood memories, so lets thank it. Say “nice try. You did a great job and now lets get happier. Lets remember why we came here. Lets have some fun. Lets learn a new operating system”. Of course your ego will resist, after all, we learned the other system so completely that this new one represents a complete change in religion; a total reversal. It will seem like a threat. So we’ll go slow and let the pleasure the joy and the happiness convince the ego, or old operating system, that everything’s OK. 

Remember how much I love you. Remember how beautiful and delightful you are. Feel how much you love you. And you have always loved you, that’s why you worked so hard to learn the ways of the world, you just wanted to do it right. So thank you very much for caring for me, and now I will care for you. 

Yes, dear little ego, you are now a perfect caterpillar, you have done well, we survived, you were brilliant. And now you know well how to crawl and feed and live a small fearful life successfully. So we will no longer train you in crawling, we will do something else. You will not become a more successful caterpillar those days are over, you are now entering the cocoon. You will emerge as something else. You will love it. So let go all the notions of self-improvement, and all the things you chase after. Let go all the things you knew about caterpillaring and we will become something else. It may be very new, don’t worry.

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